Friday, 25 January 2013

For The Broken Hearted..

I know how you feel.. Empty, betrayed, no happiness and  whatsoever.. :( You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse.. 

You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them.. :) 

And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. 

And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. 

You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. 

And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. 

And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. 

Because you've spent so many nights LYING AWAKE in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. 

After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. 
And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. 

You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this... 

Sunday, 20 January 2013

The Moments We Shared..

Dear ****... i will not forget the moments we shared together.. 
List of movies we watched.. 

  • This means war
  • Contraband
  • Kungfu panda 2
  • Real steel
  • The green lantern
  • The green hornet
  • Mr. and Mrs. incredible
  • The avengers
  • Wrath of the titans
  • The lorax
  • Mirror mirror
  • The hunger games
  • KL gangster
  • Battleship
  • Pirates of the caribean
  • In time
  • Ghost rider 2
  • Final destination
  • Snow white and the huntsman
  • Madagascar
  • Amazing spiderman
  • Batman
  • Total recall
  • Retribution (Resident evil)
  • Dredd
  • Hotel transylvania
  • Twilight 2
  • Jack reacher

I will not forget the bitter-sweet we shared.. take care.. 
and here is the song that maybe suit our situation.. :) "time to let go"

don't blame the situation.. I'm sure, God already have big plan for us.. :)

Saturday, 19 January 2013

Trip to Manukan Island

holla hup! I'm here again.. :D 

I know... I haven't update my blog since last year.. huhu quite busy doing this and that.. (to be frank.. last semester I was busy doing my research proposal.. such a headache! @.@)

ok now let's begin with Manukan Island.. 

Manukan Island or Pulau Manukan is the second largest island in the Tunku Abdul Rahman National Park, Malaysia's first marine national park. It is located in the East Malaysian state of Sabah, just off the coast of Kota Kinabalu and is easily accessible by boat.

Manukan is the most popular island with Kota Kinabalu residents. Manukan has some good stretches of beaches on the southern coastline. The best beach is on the eastern tip of the island. Offshore of Manukan are coral reefs, which is ideal for snorkeling, diving and swimming.. 
ouh! the boat ticket cost RM30.00 / person (2 way) 
and.. some of our pictures. . p/s click image to enlarge. 
our leader.. he's busy checking the boat tickets! :D (y so serious? ;p) 

the sun is HOT!.. Sooo sunblock cream is a must! :D

on the boat! ^_^"
excited! :D
our lunch.. (fried chicken wing, steamed chicken, sausage, fried noodle)  

the lovely jetty.. 
Friendship... is not something you learn in school.. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything.. yo! fren! i Love U!